and so I think.

Seek out the light between
Time and confusion glowing up ahead
Instead of slipping through
You bit off more, much more than you could chew

You could not Swallow It
No baby you're not ready, slow down
And take the time to evolve
You could not Swallow It
No baby you're not ready, slow down

We had a lot to learn
Table manners and grace, how to wait your turn when
Time came to clear your slate
You had too much, had too much on your plate

You could not Swallow It
No baby you're not ready, slow down
And take the time to evolve
You could not Swallow It
No baby you're not ready, slow down

Take your medicine and crawl before you walk
Think it through before you open you open your mouth to talk
Be an advocate of joy
Find your little heart's desire and


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Follow it
Whoa baby you're not ready, slow down
And take the time to evolve
You could not Swallow It
No baby you're not ready, slow down

(Baby you're not ready!)

You could not Swallow It
No baby you're not ready, slow down
And take the time to evolve
You could not Swallow It
No baby you're not ready, now

(Slow down!)

No, no, no, no!

Don't be afraid, this is your year
It's gonna be alright, you're a performer
Just take your time, but not too much time

No, no, no, no!

Alone ?

Sometimes I feel like I am invisible.


I know that people can see my physical presence but I am not sure if they are judging me by the clothes I am wearing, or the syle (or lack thereof) if they are thinking ' thank god I am not as fat as that woman' 


I know that my co-workers see me, and they are polite in passing and sometimes we do the small-talk, but I am not really invested in their lives, I dont see any of them outside of work.


I know the people at my church see me, but sometimes I feel like they are looking right through me...or smiling so that I wont see that they are looking past me.


I dont go out much, mostly because I dont like 'social situations' I like to do quiet things like libraries, historical sights, parks, museums, art exhibits...I dont do concerts, or places where there will be large crowds.


I like to go to the grocery store too, but sometimes I feel like people are in too much of a hurry, and they are rude, and pushy, and I have to be very alert...or be run over.