Alone ?

Sometimes I feel like I am invisible.


I know that people can see my physical presence but I am not sure if they are judging me by the clothes I am wearing, or the syle (or lack thereof) if they are thinking ' thank god I am not as fat as that woman' 


I know that my co-workers see me, and they are polite in passing and sometimes we do the small-talk, but I am not really invested in their lives, I dont see any of them outside of work.


I know the people at my church see me, but sometimes I feel like they are looking right through me...or smiling so that I wont see that they are looking past me.


I dont go out much, mostly because I dont like 'social situations' I like to do quiet things like libraries, historical sights, parks, museums, art exhibits...I dont do concerts, or places where there will be large crowds.


I like to go to the grocery store too, but sometimes I feel like people are in too much of a hurry, and they are rude, and pushy, and I have to be very alert...or be run over.